Time

You know that Einstein saying that talks about time? How having your hand on a hot burner for one minute feels like an hour, and one hour with your hands on a hot woman feels like a minute? I have always understood this saying to a point.

But with everything that has happened in my life the past few months, I not only understand it, I feel it. The closer it gets to the time I get to see Ryan, the more agonizing, long, and drawn out it really is. And I know when I actually get there, time will pass by way too fast.

It's such torture. I want to be with Ryan and spend time with him. But there's always that nagging in the back of my head that I will have to leave. I hate leaving.

Although this month is a lot better, with me being out with him for a week and then him coming out here 2 days later for Valentine's week.

But still, the nagging is still there. There will be another undefinate time period in which we will be apart, again.

I will try and cherish the time we are together like it won't end (temporarily), but it's still hard. This is harder than going through a divorce. But, I have a very strong feeling....knowing....that it will be worth it.