Resolutions?

My big joke running around with everyone excited about the new year is "2010 is canceled..." It started out as a funny joke with all the happenings around this holiday season. 2009 was the worst and best year of my life. I don't even know which part was more prominent at this point either.

I'm not even excited about a new year. I don't know if it's part of the getting older part...but a new year doesn't mean anything. It's just a new number to put on the date. Whatever person you are the previous year will carry over into the new year. You can't just change yourself because it's a new date. You are who you are and that's who you always will be. That's why I find resolutions to be a waste of energy. A very large percentage of resolutions are broken within the first few months of the new year.

That's one thing I've really learned about myself the past ~4 months or so. I can't change myself into anything else besides who I am. And I am so glad I am with someone who likes me for me!

It doesn't even feel like New Years to me. I guess it will a little bit more now since Robin is coming over and we're making a delicious dinner and commiserating about forbidden relationships. But I have no one to really kiss. I could kiss Robin...but...you know.

In less than a week I will be in Ryan's arms. It feels like an eternity. I don't even care about the festivities today. Next week is all I care about and all I want to get to at this point.